while we were snowed in for the february 2010 blizzard, we started working on the nursery. only 8 1/2 weeks left until we get to meet 'lil bug. we have the crib and the glider; just need to get a dresser that can double as a changing table. it took me awhile to be able to put together the nursery but finally i was ready.
after we were done i sat in the glider and gave myself some time to think. while i'm happy to get the nursery ready for 'lil bug, i am sad we never got one ready for matthew. with his original due date of march 30 and our move from greece back stateside to be at the beginning of june, we decided to get a pack 'n play with the bassinet topper for matthew to sleep in the first few months. once we moved back, we had planned on buying all the nursery furniture and setting it up for his room.
i sat in the rocker and wept that i never got a chance to do all the things with matthew that i will soon be doing with 'lil bug. i feel an incredible amount of joy that the blessing of a new child will soon be ours. but having a new child doesn't take away the pain of losing our sweet son. not a lot of people ask about matthew anymore. mostly they ask about 'lil bug. but that's ok though. i realize that matthew is at the forefront of our minds each day and he is not for most people. matthew will be a part of our lives each day. we will tell 'lil bug all about his/her big brother every chance we can. our family will continue to heal each day, but we will never be complete until we are all together again in heaven.