Monday, March 30, 2009

30 march 2009

dear matthew phillip,

today is the day you were supposed to be born into our lives. today is the day we were going to go from a family of 2 to a family of 3. we were busy making plans for you, precious boy.

instead, God had different plans for you and you were born 12 weeks early on 6 jan. you got sick so Jesus took you home to heaven on 11 jan.

we miss you terribly and every day is a hard day. some days it seems a little easier, but not today. we miss you so much.

your daddy and i took a trip to germany this week so we could get away from greece. i thought it would be too hard to be there on my due date.

today we went on a tour to neuschwanstein castle.
it was beautiful and we enjoyed the trip. after the castle, our tour stopped at a stunning church. we lit a candle for you and asked God to let you know how much we love you and miss you. we also shed some tears. sometimes it's just so overwhelming to not be holding you in our arms.

we know you have found so many family members and friends up there in heaven. we know your namesakes, matthew seth and phillip raymond have found you and have been giving you all the kisses and hugs we couldn't. they never had children of their own as they too, were called home early. i can imagine they love having you there with them in heaven.

here on earth, a day does not go by that your mommy and daddy do not miss you and think about you. we pray for you every day. we also pray for us. sometimes our hearts hurt so much because you're not with us growing, learning, cuddling, kissing, smiling, and crying.

one day we will be reunited with you and the hole in our hearts will once again be filled.

we love you so much precious son.

love, mommy and daddy

1 comment:

julie said...

Praying for you Cortney.